Thursday, February 05, 2015

Great Expectations

The last six months of 2014 had been an amazing turn of events - first I decided to heed my inner voice and take a six-month sabbatical from work in end June to find myself again and just do all the things I want to do (reading, crafts, arts, cook/bake, travel, etc) - before my 39th birthday. I didn't expect getting pregnant to be on that list - so soon anyway!

A fertility stone that I picked up in Gili Air

I found out when I headed to Gili Air island for a three-week holiday in August with my sister and friends. My period was late for a week (not unusual), then another week (strange) and I was getting up 3 times a night to pee and couldn't sleep (highly weird). I bought a test kit and it came out positive! That morning I cried when I saw the two clear blue lines on the stick showing immediately right after I peed on it. Could this be real? I showed it to my sis and we cried and hugged.

When I came back, L and I visited the gyne and true enough, the ultrasound scan revealed a tiny foetus nesting in my womb at eight weeks old and its heart beat reverberated strongly in the room. We were excited and still couldn't believe we made it. We always wanted to have kids and I guess there's no better time than Now. It's all in the grand scheme of life - perhaps my inner clock was telling me to slow down, stop work and let my body take over (we actually conceived on 10 July 2014, 10 days right after I stopped work).

In July, I was also feeling great - running the COTW exhibition and market - one of the many fun purrsonal projects that feed my life purpose. I also turned to arts and crafts, feeding my inner child and artist. In Gili Air, sis and I became children again and explored the island, played, created, swam, read and reflected on our lives. We were both at important turning points in our lives and I'm glad we have each other during this time. She stayed with us and we continued to fuel our creative energy and turned to creating new stuff for the festive purrzaar and set the motion for future plans.

It was not easy always; at times we still mourned the loss of Jarvis - his love was so big and his loss so profound. We grieved and celebrated him everyday. Luckily I have Mimi and Lucia who were sticking to me like bodyguards when I became pregnant (they know!). Lucia began to sleep with me in bed every night - much to our amusement. Cats are such amazing creatures.

That's why I was happy when I was approached to help with a PR campaign for the new cat museum - it's right up my alley indeed! I also organised a cat photo workshop at a cat cafe here and it was fun to connect with our fans. I got editing and writing gigs - believing in the Law Of Attraction, i.e. when one door closes, another window of opportunity opens, and we must recognise and chase our dreams and goals.

Now that 2015 is here, I have set my sights on being a mother and artist, a communicator and connector to serve my higher purpose and help others to achieve theirs too. I am a creator, I choose to love and live life fully in the present. Let it flow!